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I pulled out my Nanowrimo 2008 manuscript today.

I fell in love with my characters all over again.

There was supposed to be 15 posts, but that was completely thrown off since there wasn’t internet in Melbourne. :O

My Nano is complete!

Has been complete for a very long time.

Luka and Azrael both ate my life, Luka more so than Azrael, and both of them found their happy endings. \o/

The complete unedited Novel runs 177pages, 78,415 words. The edited version? I don’t know, because I won’t be doing any editing until next year, January at best.

I am very tired, and very proud of myself.

Luka and Azrael, may you find peace. It has been fun being your author.

I have 45000 words.

I don’t think I have any more inspiration.

WHY. D:

I wrote the most heartbreaking scene in my novel today.

I am still picking up the pieces of my heart and crazy-gluing them back together for my exam in the morning.

50% mark has been reached! \o/

Words left:

Section 1: ~7000

Section 2: ~10000

Section 3: ~10000

Estimated total word count: ~51000 (not including quotes / song)

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I’m desperately trying to reach 40,000words before I go to bed, because there is History exam tomorrow and I have completely slacked off on it. Please have pity on me, O Mighty Examiners of Cambridge.

Luka and Azrael, the two people who have completely taken over my life. Why do you do this to me, my dear characters?

Within the next 3000words I will finally come to the part which I have been dreading to write: Azrael’s death. I have been jumping around, trying to make sense of my story, trying to rewrite that terrible sypnosis into something more coherent, and still trying to reach the BIG 40K mark.

After the few days of writer’s block, when it appeared as though my plot were moving nowhere, I realized that what I needed to do was to insert just a tiny bit of romance into the story. Azrael and Luka, two friends living together, two friends who helped each other through their woes and problems, who were happy when the other was happy, there had to be something each felt for the other.

Moreso Luka, because Azrael made him everything he had become.

(Plus, I wrote a really painful scene over the last few days, finally finished both POVs last night, and I am feeling really crappy over it. D:)

I brought in a few more characters, and I have to go back to insert one of them into an earlier scene, or else he would seem pretty out of place. =/

But! Nano is started to chug again, and 40K looks probable, not impossible.

And to think that when I first started I thought A levels would consume my life (well, they have), and not write any Nano for the next 14 days. But I realized that Nano has actually kept me sane throughout my exams, and this is something that I am very proud of. :)

I ran out of ideas for fillers. This is very terrible. I still need about 7000words to fill up the space I’m sure I can’t. *pulls hair*

Anyway, I’m 695 words from the 20K mark, which is a huge feat considering I just hit the 10k mark 5 days ago, while I was struggling to study for bio, chem and math! :D I did not write at all from Wednesday onwards, and I produced 3.5K words yesterday in less than 1.5hours. :Db Today I produced 4.5K words, and I will be writing a lot more in the evening. Luka is such a joy to write, although each time I bring up his past, my heart breaks. There are so many cracks now I’m afraid writing the death scene will completely shatter it.

Anyway, there was a lull in which I tried to invent a new filler (to no avail), so I engaged my sister’s services, and produced a cover image.

Still in the works, but I’m terrible at original images, so I’m quite happy already. \o/

Milestone number one is in sight! 10,000words will be passed by Friday, after my next 3 important papers are over. :)

Meanwhile, a little something that happened during study session…

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I don’t want to kill Azrael.

That’s the only coherent thought I have left in my whole Nanoing. I felt some sadness when I wrote in the revelation that Azrael would be dying within the year, and hinted that it would be before winter.

I… I’m not sure how I would write it. I did not really plan his death, but the only way to write my ending would be for him to die.

I do have a couple of ideas, but I’m not very sure how it will work out. I have to work it into the theme of friendship.

I also just realized that I have yet to plan what would happen after he died. Oh crud. But still! There are lots of things to happen before that, Azrael has maybe 7 months left, because if he doesn’t die before that, Luka will have to watch him suffer through the first few weeks of winter.

(Ohohoh, euthanesia argument? :D)

Now I know that Luka is the most awesome person in the world.

I want to be a painter too!

1st of 8 posts tracking my progress on my NaNo.

In the next 10000 words, I will have killed Azrael. And I will be extremely sad and in mourning.

After 15000words, I will swop to Luka’s perspective, and write about Azrael. Right now it is vice versa, and Luka is proving to be one tough nut to write. He does have his special moments, like when he broke the mirror, and so does Azrael (who has more and he is not my main character >.>).

This writing style is slightly odd. I am not very sure I understand it myself, but lots to do after I actually finish, and the big red pen will see the daylight.

And of course, me being me, the unromantic asshole, all slightly romantic scenes have see the dustbin. There will be absolutely no romance. Only friendship.

Two characters are hard enough to develop without having to introduce their love lives. My god. My friend says that two lead guys will inevitably lead to slash, and I am out to disprove this theory. There will be no slash, for heaven’s sake! Leave the two boys alone. 19th Century European world is a tough place to be living in as it is, without having to worry about their sexuality. ;D

Hey Luka, marry me, would’ya? :D

Oh Luka, why are you such an adorable person? I still don’t understand why I love you so much, despite all your faults and annoying habits, but you are one of the rare characters that I would love to make real and hug. ):

Luka happens to be my protagonist, by the way. And he happens to be my most awesome character to date, with all my effort put in to think about his characterization, I should hope so too!

The plot has advanced to the point that I very much doubt it will make sense if it were written in a single sitting. This afternoon I toyed with the idea of breaking it into acts (like, a play), and that’s what I’m going to do. Unfortunately, it would seem that I can’t ever write a story without having a bit of cheesy romance ongoing. This time however, every single romantic part plays an important role in the story! Phew, no longer a romance novel. Besides, I hate writing crappy scenes, and thus, I have no idea how to go about doing it. adhjkasd!

Act One;
“We can only learn to love by loving.”

Act Two;
“Living might mean taking chances but they’re worth taking; loving might be a mistake but it’s worth making.”

Act Three;
“Once in awhile, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.”

I still can’t wait to pen down the ending, the thought that I have to go through 50000words before that kills me. My imagination doesn’t run that wild.

Too much time on my Nano, not enough time on my studies. Plus, the new revelation (can I laugh and say this is my tentative chapter 6 title? Revelation. Nice.) that I am definitely going to Japan, and possibly watching Elisabeth twice, has awakened the guilt that I probably can’t get 4 As. Alas.

My protaganist now has a name. I’ve been trying to pick rarer names, and I was totally all for calling him Jesper, until… at some point in time I thought that that was terrible (as much as I like the name Jesper), and he was anything but a ‘Jesper’. This name is not anything special, but I do believe that once I further the plot, the name will grow to be related with him. :D

Lead character the second, who is looking to have as much writing time as the protaganist, has a name as well. And this name, I am extremely fond of. The more I look at it, the more suitable I see it to be. Plus, it does not help that this particular character happens to be my favorite character (whatever, he’s as important as the protaganist. No him, no protaganist; no protaganist, no story.).

I no longer want to kill off my protaganist, as posted on the Nano forums. I am now officially extremely fond of him, and if my ending ever comes true, I will cry when I do eventually kill him off. ):

Lack of plot, lots of character development, seeing as I only have 2 to mess with my brain. I am very happy.

AAAND! JAPAN 2008! :D